Some Inspiration: I wasn’t sure how to start writing this, maybe that’s why it took me so long to post, but I really want to talk about life and purpose and fear and all those wonderful, terrifying topics. I have been feeling pretty lost recently, I’m not exactly sure why maybe its because I’m 20 and not sure about what I want to do with the rest of my life and I feel like everyone expects me to have all my shit figured out and I don’t and it terrifies me; but that’s just a theory. My tumblr is a pretty decent description of me, its like an image of my brain. It goes from pretty depressed to pretty hopeful then back again. That’s how I’ve been feeling lately, some days are great and I feel like I can do anything and I’m really young and the 20s are the best years of our lives. Other days I feel alone and sad confused about where I’m headed in life and I just feel like I’m too old to be such a complete failure. This up and down really sucks and I really wish I was just 100% happy and hopeful all the time, but that’s not the case. One of the things that has really helped me recently however, is trusting myself. I always used to look for others for decision-making or advice or opinions, and recently I have discovered that the only way that I am going to be happy is if I follow my gut. I know the answers I’m looking for but I desperately try to find them in others, and when others don’t deliver the answers I want I get upset about it. I now realize that that is the thing that was holding me back quite a bit and its something that I’m working very hard to fix now. It seems like a pretty simple thing to know but it hadn’t occurred to me. I would catch glimpses of this comfort and happiness when I did exactly what I wanted, when I wanted to do it, but didn’t realize that it was the reason for my bliss. I will again leave you off with some inspirational quotes and return to this in the next Pilotto post.
PS. I thought this was a pretty awesome set from polyvore created with my previous post | Check it out here! <3